30 June 2006

I dont feel the blockage at my chest anymore today. Yes, I was tensed yesterday even after the class ended for hours and hours. But now Im ok. I have been listening too much on CMX and Ismo Alanko. I just find them different and intriguing. Apologize for the shorthand notes that I posted in my blog earlier, the one with #1-#36. There arent from me. I took them from a book. I should have quote that but I have missed out the rules for that. I have found a partner for my OOP project yeaaa....and now Im looking for someone who wants to join me for my Final Year Project for next term. Someone who can work smart, long hours, fast idea, can handle some pressure, passionate, dont give up easily, some programming literate, responsible and etc....hehe.

I dreamt a few dreams. Nowadays, I dreamt that my grandma's soul reappear. This time, we were at one house, having a gathering. Her soul appeared in the form of her own body and asked us how we are doing. She asked me about my studies. Although, it was a bit eerie but we confronted it calmly. Later, her soul started to be a bit irritating to us and we started to avoid her. But her soul got more stronger as her energy got more younger as she had a young people's energy in an old body. As we tried to avoid her, she chased us up and down the stairs....oh, then I woke up.

p/s : Internet connection down for days, I need to call and get it fixed. Damn, how many times do I have call them in a week?

27 June 2006

Water pressure has been down for weeks. It wasn’t that enjoyable to shower with that amount of water but still I Like to shower. Today, the water pressure is back to normal again and I had a big reaction for that as if I have never seen that splashy of water for ages coming out from the shower tiny holes and it was just marvelous

29 June 2006
I heard that he is strict. Oh yes, it was true. He was already shouting at me when I just stepped into his class. For some reason, I was started to feel a bit tensed and got some flashback. At the beginning, I was feeling a bit bad and towards then I lost the feeling. This education society must have been the caring-type of society. They are too care until they give them everything. At the end, they complaint that educators have spoon-feed the students too much. Think again, they don’t teach the young schoolers to be independent in the culture of learning and since then, they are living in paradise, waiting to give, and give and give, and accept all the time. Or maybe their teaching methodology isn't interesting enough to cultivate the love of learning in all students.

As for the level of tertiary education, I think students are old enough to know what do they want to and what are they studying for. This guy maybe right, he mentioned in the class that students should be responsible for coming on time to class and to learn and etc. It's easy for the school to do that, if the school can track which students have bad attendance and stuffs, don’t hesitate to give them a warning. Most students afraid to be kick-out from school because they cant provide a good explanation to their parents for their action. Parents send them to school in order to get some knowledge and for heaven sake, we don’t have free education here and so…think about how your parents have work hard for you and the family. After all, school doesn’t want to have bad reputation. It really depends, some school has the vision of shaping the new generation, making business, earn more money, for reputation, for quality and etc.

I think I have sidetracked quite much, the point is that I don’t like to be in a pressure situation or under a strict fella who thinks that discipline is needed in the class. But I think at this age or stage, we are old enough to have self-discipline, responsible, concentration, passion for learning. It's up to you to decide if you want to learn.

hmm, I dont know, maybe he is enjoying to have some power. When he likes it, he wants it more.

25 June 2006

I dreamt some high waves. My family, relatives and I were staying in a hotel next to the beach. The window room I had was facing the sea. I couldn’t sleep at night and I stood by the window and looked out the surrounding. It was beautiful. And after for some time the sea waves started to be rough and the waves were as high as 2 meters or more and slammed the shore. Some water went inside the room as my room was at the ground floor. I had the thinking of Am I going to die?

26 June 2006

I dreamt that my family was in some kind of vacation. We had booked 2 rooms but those rooms look exactly like a house. I was looking for food. I tried that spicy potato chips and it was real damn spicy and went to the next room. My dad, sis and bro were there. They were complimenting the place. And I looked for more food. There was a packet with lots of buns. And then asked where was my mum. She was at next room, watching tv. Then for real, I awaken by my mum's call.

27 June 2006

I dreamt that we were all in the hall waiting for my grandma's spirit to show up. Then, a small bubble float in the air and that was the signed. Bubble popped and we saw the remote control tv was floating in the air and towards to my mum, I was just standing right next to her. I felt a bit eerie with the dream and woke myself up, with my eyes still shut and the last scene image was stagnant in my mind for a while before slowly I let it go.

#37 Use things and love people

We live in a consumer culture-one that values possessions and experiences more than people. And yet, somehow we know that these things can never give to the human heart what it desires most : loving relationships and a sense of self-worth.

To experience genuine happiness, it is necessary to strike a balance between the pursuit things and a solid investment in the lives of others. The best of all plans is to use things for the purpose of expressing love to others - true wealth and true happiness  come from loving relationships.

#38 Chase a butterfly

Until the wright brothers did what seemed impossible, man was unable to take to the skies. How far we have flown since then! And yet, no flying machine has ever matched the beauty of a butterfly, as it colors the air of a garden with its vibrantly designed wings.

The mystery and beauty of the butterfly lies beyond its ability to fly-in its miraculous transformation from a lowly caterpillar. Through its example, we discover that the grounded and limited can soar in unlimited flight. The bound and lifeless can be free and vibrant, the dull and colorless can become beautiful and inspiring. Chase a butterfly and glimpse the power of the possible - happiness is soaring with the wings you have been given.

Suria KLCC Park

Waiting for the train

Reached KL sentral, heading to KL monorail

Welcome to Berjaya Times Square

Walkway to New Port Village Seafood. I cant remember whose legs got captured.

Walking out from the Seafood place. model's legs: my cousin and her boyfriend

Night view from that area.

23 June 2006

Everything is inter-related. After 2 lessons of yoga I have realized that our body movements are interconnected with our breathing. It's about getting awareness of your own body, mind and soul. Now I believe it is possible to make our own body strong by practicing and aware. Today I can feel the muscles tighten on my stomach. I was feeling tough of raising my both legs up while laying on my back and when exhaling, I could really feel total relax. When I had shower just now, I also realized that our doing things in daily life is some form of yoga and meditation too. For example, when showering, you touch almost all parts of your body, from head to toe. Each touch is an aware touch. Each movement is some kind of massaging or stimulate the area to relax and ease from tense. For example: washing your hair, washing your face, ear, neck. So, do shower everyday and water calms the soul.

Apart from that, masturbation is important. We don’t stimulate the breasts, clit or penis during yoga classes. So, there are some leftover parts to be done during masturbation session. And then you're complete :D

About inter-related, we just need to love everything on earth from the universe to the smallest object. Although object seems to be a dead thing but you need to look at the inter-related perspective. For example: how do we get papers? From trees, trees need rain/water and sun to grow.

At olden days where people were anesthetic(I hope I got the right term) they think that sand, sea, mountain were powerful, those were like God and they worshipped it because they were blessed for the rain, sun and etc for their plants to grow, animals have food and continue to live. I think people worshipping things which they don’t know the root/anchor or how it gets started

#35 Err on the side of generosity

Truly happy people are routinely generous. Whether they have little or much, they have discovered the joy of sharing with others freely and abundantly. Such people are sometimes short on cash but they are always rich in the things that money cannot buy.

Practice generosity in your own life. If you are already a generous person, press yourself to be generous until it hurts. You will soon notice that your attitudes about money and possessions are changing, your relationships are flourishing and your outlook on life is bright - giving is a rich way of living.

#36 Regard age as a gift

Getting older is a lot more than adding wrinkles, submitting to aches and pains and watching your children leave home. Age is a record of your days. And it bears gifts-namely wisdom and confidence.

So continue to celebrate those birthdays. Think back over the challenges you have conquered in the past year. Remember the victories and cherish new accomplishments. Catalog the insights you've recently acquired - age is a scared trust.

22 June 2006

For 2 consecutive days, my dreaming looked a bit weird. It was vivid when I know I was dreaming but puff! When I got up. It made me to stay more in bed to dream more. But what I can recalled was CROCODILES. Yes, I saw some crocodiles. I think it was given out for free to the public.

Honestly, I missed one class yesterday. I couldn’t get up and today, I was up on time. Guess what? I went to school even though I wasn’t sure if there was any lab session starting this week and yea….no one was there…haha. When I returned home, there was a big dead rat at the porch. No choice, my housemate and I had to clean it. It was huge..yukss…and the body…eww…an d the torn skin head...

I was writing this music for days and I still havent get it done because it sounds too complex. It’s the midsummer week, im going to be alone for a while, the board is not going to be active for some time. I enjoy being part of the community. Those people are crazily missing m'sian foods and they can only enjoy by looking at my foodpic. :)

#35 Learn something new everyday

Graduation ceremonies are called "commencement exercises" because they mark the beginning rather than the end of our learning process. Formal education simply equips us with the skills we need to process information and expand our minds throughout our lifetimes. Learning ever ends!

The more we learn, the more we want to learn! The person who makes it a habit to learn something new, awakens each day with a true zest for living - an expectancy and eagerness to discover even more about the world has created and those He has placed in it. - develop a learning yearning.

#36 Focus on the best in myself

Most people tend to focus on those aspects of their personality and appearance that they would most like to change. Admit it now! Don’t you hear yourself saying something like, "If only my feet were smaller, my hair thicker and my ears flatter" that kind of thinking only leads to dissatisfaction and low self-esteem.

The true seeker of happiness will find a way to focus on those things others admire and like most about him or her-and celebrate them! Focusing on your best characteristics can literally help you to see your life in a better light. After all, we are each unique creation. - build the good that you are into the best you can be

21 June 2006

It's starting of new semester and today I had the first ever class at 4pm. Yea, I felt that Im a veteran. All those new students looked a bit shyly. Lingered in front of the class, wondering if there have come to the correct venue or correct time. I got a miss calls from China today, number country code starting with +86 at 5pm today. Whose playing prank on me?

I went for a surprise visit my friend at her new apartment yesterday and walked to pasar malam to get some food. Rain started to pour. I ran back home to get umbrella for them, yes was wet in the rain. I wonder if that had caused my dizziness.

I went for my first yoga class today. Ok, the instructor laughed at me because my chinese was bad. There were 3 new including me. The instructor placed me beside him. Well no tension or anything. But I always feel like laughing when I happen to do or get something correctly done. For example, in swimming…when I know or get it proper, I'd start to laugh and spoilt the whole thing. I was a bit out of place at first. I had to look at what was he doing and focus on breathing. Breathing is important here. Its using stomach breathing technique where you can feel it expands and breathe in and collapse when breathe out. Anyway I enjoyed it. I felt more light, posture more aligned and good.

#31 Be quick to ask forgiveness

Forgiveness is a wonderful thing and yet, much too often we allow our stubbornness to keep us burdened down with guilt, struggling with broken relationships and feeling inadequate. The good news is that no one needs to live that way.

When we ask for forgiveness from those we have hurt or offended, we turn the tables on guilt and shame. A rush of joy, peace and even elation soon follows. Why sit huddled in a dark corner of the doghouse when you can be running and playing in the sunshine of forgiveness? And remember, sometimes you need to forgive yourself - The best state to live in is the state of "forgiven"

#32 Take cookies to a friend or neighbor

Food has been an important means of expressing acceptance and hospitality in virtually every culture throughout recorded history. It is such a natural act that a young child is likely to offer a half-eaten cracker to a stranger.

There are undoubtedly many complex reasons why human beings feel this need to share; however, it is enough for us to know that such an exercise brings with it a strong sense of well being. Somehow when you give an offering of happiness to someone else, it comes back to perch on your own windowsill! - if you want happiness, give some away.

A bit dizzy when waking up from nap. I was a bit blur, sitting down, didn’t know what to do. I was waiting for him and still he had not shown up. I had some dream while napping and there were still circulating around my head. Oh, my application to borrow the camera was rejected. Now, Im wondering how can I get an apprentice as an assistant photographer. Website, blog..to promote myself..yea,Im doing it at the moment. I went to a nice place yesterday and no chance to capture the moment.

Mentor photographer is working as a Freelance Photographer and he has his exposition running this month. Congratulation!

#29 Give and receive more hugs

Hugs are powerful-they can take the hurt out of a child's scraped knee, heal a long standing alienation, soothe a troubled soul, comfort the grieving heart and put a smile on the face of almost any person who gives or receives one. Hugs are an expression of love without words. They speak for themselves saying "I care, I accept you, I value you, I've missed you, I like to be with you, Im here for you"

Hugs are necessary for emotional growth-in fact, some researches have concluded that children need as many hugs a day as they need glasses of milk. And marriage counselors often prescribe that spouses should hug at least twice a day. Don’t forget to take your hug for happiness today! - Human touch connects us spiritually and physically to others.

#30 Play a children's game with a child

Children play spontaneously and freely for the sheer fun of it. Many adults think that such play is childish. The truth is, we could all use an occasional adventure in the innocence and unfettered delight of a child's world.

Find yourself a little person and ask if he or she has any fun games the two of you could play together. You might be surprised how much happiness such an activity can produce-after all, there's nothing to prove and plenty to gain. Even if you lose, you're sure to come away smiling - innocent fun is the best fun of all

17 June 2006

I was feeling awful when I woke up in the morning although I slept well after feeling a bit sad. That feeling was a mixture or sad, missing and thinking. It had it on me until today. Not much sad but too much missing. In spite of all that I enjoyed having a great time with my aunties. Dinner at the seaside was marvelous. That place was awesome, sea smell, wave sound, city night light, beach acoustic music…it was fantastic although the food wasn’t that superb but the whole environment made it great. It made me think that I have some kind of connection with water or the sea.

After dinner, we drove to Spring Garden. My mum and her siblings lived there before they shifted to this current place. It was a big house with big kitchen and garden. I was 3 or 4 years old that time. My sis, cousins, youngest uncle and I loved to play in the kitchen, storeroom and anywhere. Then, after dinner, my dad would bring us, the kids to the seaside. The seaside was like 10 meters away from the house. We were picked some seashells, walked around. It was fun.

'FATHER - PITA'

There is one man who figures largely in all our lives; some call him "Father", others - "Daddy". In our modern days, we hear so often from ungrateful and unthoughtful minds the much disgusting and unwelcome expression - "The Old Man"

Today, he is to be called - "the forgotten man". How often our Fathers lie awake at night trying to figure out how to make ends meet. "Uneasy lies the head that wears the crown". But Father never let us know. He carries on courageously, he battles all day with a heartless world to wrest from it a living for us, and then comes home in the evening and listens to our complaints, sits at our sick bedside and calms the anxious fears of a nervous Mother.

If there is in all the world an unsung hero, it is the Forgotten man, Dad. He gives everything and he gets so little in return. The world knows nothing of  his struggle, and often those at home do not appreciate it. His only consolation is the love of a good wife and the voice of conscience to whisper, "Well Done". If there is in heaven a special place for heroes, I shall search there for my Dad.

We do not mean to be ungrateful to Dad, but how often we are thoughtless in his regard in the very way we are thoughtful for others. He is usually the last on any festival list and there is not much thought behind the gifts that he receives. He gets the usual box of ties, handkerchiefs and socks, may be belt, towel or slippers.

But he is expected to pay the bills and keep the old vehicle rolling so that that you can get around. Dad may not be able to appraise the worth of a college or university career but he can tell you the cost.

When did you last sit by Dad's side, put your arms around him and tell him that he is the most wonderful dad in the world? there is no one in your home who appreciates a little affection more and gets less than your Dad. He doesnt complain but sometimes he must wonder.

Always make Father's Day a real celebration for Dad and although he could be sad you are sure to make him feel glad. Make him to remember like the day he once had with mother when he said "Sweetheart, from now on till death do us part, for I shall always love you in my heart" Whatever you do, make it a grand surprise and show that good old Dad that he is not the Forgotten Man in your home.

Sometimes you think he is a bit severe

He misunderstands you so,

Dont fool yourself, that Dad of yours,

Understands more than you know.

Father does know best wheneven Mother pleads him to rest.

Father should not be taken as friend, respect must be given to him as the Head of the family where he stands, thus mother and the rest in the Home will be able to call their home a real "home sweet home". Day by day from the start, the father sees in his heart, to make the mother and the children his sweethearts. Protecting the family from falling apart although some children in marriage may depart; the Father's love will always follow his children near or far apart like the wheels of a cart. Should Father sometimes be angry, remember to say to him - "Daddy, daddy I am deeply sorry, and if I have done wrong, please forgive me." A father will never say No, if such is his children's implore. When Father is happy, mother is happy and children are happy this is what we call "A happy family" and they will always gain prosperity and live in peace till eternity.

Happy Father's Day!

'MOTHER - MATA'

What does our Mother mean to us? She is the finest legacy, the best fortune possible to children.

In a peculiar way, she moulds the character and shapes the destiny of her children. She suffers with them and for them. She lives with them and too often, dies with them. Abraham Lincoln said : "Men ought to be mighty good to women, for nature gave them the big end of the log to lift, and mighty little strength to do it with"

Let us go back in thought a few years. Our young Mother set her feet on the path of life. "Is the way long?" she asked. and her guide said "Yes, and the way is hard and you will be old before you reach the end of it. But the end will be better than the beginning"

But our young Mother was happy and she would not believe that anything could be better than these years. So she played with us and gathered flowers for us along the way and the sun shone on us, and life was good. And our young Mother cried, "nothing will ever be lovelier than this"

Then night came and storm and the path was dark and we shook with fear and cold and our Mother drew us close and covered us with her mantle and we said "Oh mother, we are not afraid for you are near and we know no harm can come" And our Mother said "This is better than the brightness of day, for I have taught my children courage."

And the morning came, and there was a hill ahead and we climbed and grew weary and our Mother was weary but all the time she said to us " A little patience, and we are there" So we climbed, and when we reached the top, we said "We could not have done it without you, Mother" And our Mother, when she lay down that night, looked up at the stars and said "This is a better day than the last, for my children have learned fortitude in the face of hardships. Yesterday, I gave them courage and today I have given them strength."

And the next day came, strange clouds which darkened the whole earth-coulds of Hate and Evil, and we groped and stumbled and our Mother said "Look up, lift your eyes to the light." And we looked up and saw above the everlasting glory, and it guided us and brought us beyond the darkness. That night our Mother said "This is the best day of all, for I have shown my children Light".

She is growing old now. There are wrinkles on her brow and her step is not so light. Her hair is grey and her form is bent; sometimes her hands tremble and even her voice is different. As she stands upon the western porch of life, the hale of the living power is gathered about her form. She is watching now the sunset and beyod the hill she sees a shining road and golden gates flinging wide. She is saying, I have reached the end of my journey, and now I know that the end is better than the beginning for you can walk alone.

No soldier on the field of battle, no statesman in the halls of State can claim a richer need of praise, a larger share of honour. She is greater than the greatest sculptor, because out of a bundle of possibilities she carves an angel form. She is greater than the greatest painter, because on the canvas of the minds of her children she paints pictures which shall live forever and ever. She is greater than the greatest poet, because in the hearts of her children she writes poetry and sings songs which help to swell the anthems of the angel choir of peace.

No matter how much gratitude the children may be able to repay the Mother, there is yet the greatest part of the debt due to the Mother they can never repay and that is the period during which the children being protected by the Mother in the womb may be more or less than nine months and nine days. No child on earth can ever say to the Mother-"Oh, Mother, I have repaid you all the debts I owe you in this world and you should no longer be a hindrance to me." The little drops of tears the children shed, the mother's heart deeply bled, but the tear drops the Mother shed the children should remember when they are in bed. The little children who have now grown on account of the food which their Mother fed, should in return feed their Mother even should they be living in a little shed. This little kindness shown by the children is happiness to the Mother on earth as though in heaven.

Happy Mother's Day!

Older and Wiser

if you want to bring happiness to the aged, please stop telling them how they should live. A person who has reached 70 or 80 should not have to be told for example, what they should eat. Strangely enough, I find that people who hand out this advice are usually middle-aged and forever swallowing antacid tablets or mixtures for their indigestion. Also stop airing your knowledge. On many subjects the elderly can run rings around you. Being old doesnt mean you have suddenly become a moron (From Woman's Day. June 26, 1980)

The tea plucker and his basket

This well known tale comes from Nepal. Once there was a young couple who lived in a hut with the husband's father as well as their young son. The wife was always quarelling with her father-in-law and she complained loudly about having to live with him. One day she threathened her husband by saying that if he did not get rid of his father she would leave him.

Not wanting this to happen, the young man took a large tea picking basket, put his father in it and after strapping it to his shoulders began to walk towards the mountains. When the little boy saw this, he ran after his father and asked, "Father, where are you taking grandfather?". "To the mountains my son". "Why?" "Because grandfather is old and useless and has become a nuisance to us". "What will happen to grandfather?" "Oh I suppose he will die of the cold or get eaten by the wild animals". The little boy was quiet for a moment, then he said, "Father, make sure you bring the basket back when you have got rid of grandpa". "Why, son?" "Because, when you grow old like grandpa I will need the basket to carry you off to the mountains too!". When the man heard this he was very ashamed of setting a bad example and he took his father home and treated him very well after that.

From "A Buddhist Reflects on The Family" by Vijaya Samarawickrama

Duties and Obligations

The duty of a parent is to

- restrain children from doing wrong

- establish them in virtuous deeds

- educate them in arts and sciences

- encourage them to find suitable spouses

- give them their inheritance at the proper time

Children in turn reciprocate their parent's selfless devotion by

- supporting and protecting them and supplying their wants

- performing their duties concerning their parents

- maintaining the good name of the family

- conducting themselves so that they deserve to inherit their parents' property

- remembering their parents when they are dead

A husband shall treat this wife thus

- use kind and respectful words towards her

- refrain from abusing her

- be faithful to her

- entrust his wealth to her custody

- provide her with garments and ornaments according to his means

A wife should treat her husband thus

- prepare and serve his meals at proper times

- be generous and hospitable to his friends and relatives

- be faithful to him

- guard his wealth and property

- perform all her duties skillfully and diligently

40,009 visits to my blog - thank you!

I wasnt at the top of my shape for a week. I lived in my cell for days. I didnt had a good mood and was a bit sick. And at last I ran out from there. There were many things to think. I had the same crisis for weeks and I didnt know what or where did it went wrong. But I think I should accept it, smile, laugh and drop it. Because the whole thing was just so crazy. But sometimes I think I just dont like to be cautious because it limits me. It limits me until it cuts off what I wanted to say.

I was playing with his website about work at home. It needs to sign up in order to see the presentation. And so I did and guess what. I got a call from a lady the next day. She sounded chirpy and nice. Firstly, I thought my friend was playing some prank on me and I had a mellow Hello as the opening because I didnt care. Later, I realized that it wasnt a prank call and I didnt know who was it. I happened to think of Paula Malai Ali as she sounded just like her and I started to be more awake, thinking that if I have win anything. At last and for real, she was the girl from the website. I didnt like anything about the conversation but I liked the way how she said my name as if we have known for years :P 

Ok I don’t want to sound as if Im blaming you on this or anything. I don’t know how can it be simple. As least I started to feel more cool down after the shortgun. But still Im getting some feedback. Oh, Cant I get any peace for a while? I know that we shouldn’t focus on ourselves too much because it gets stuck. Feel more better if could focus on people. Start to comment about other people? And more? And more? Huh?! I don’t get it. Maybe that’s the way how you say thing. Maybe that’s you, how you sound. Your traits. I can handle it. I can.

With this weather, it's nice to be on the mountain or any hilly places. Singing aloud, something that I havent done it for a while. It doesn’t matter how ugly it may sound. The thing is just need to be out from the lungs.

FIFA World Cup starts today : 11.45pm Germany VS Costa Rica

8 june 2006

It was raining today. I have a big task to do. My friend has asked me to play a song "Heart and Soul" from the movie Big (1988), starring Tom Hanks, record it and send it to her. Oh my! I have always think that I am poor in my listening skill. I need music sheet. My sightreading is good. But I did got something out of it. Anyway, I'll see what I can do about it. Damn, Michael Halaas is a damn good pianist. It was intriguing to see his videos.

I dreamt about my 2nd housemate again. We were talking to each other in the dream. She came and knock at my door. I couldn’t hear it. I guess she has knocked a few times before she was pissed off and went away. I realized it after that and went to ask her. She was pissed with me and I apologized to her. Then everything was ok.

I have already fixed the CNY video yesterday. Supposed to do something with website but I wasn’t feeling well and did something else instead. Yes, some task:

• Refurnish family website
• Refurnish my site + create new blog for CV
• Download Illustrator

#25 See the world-even if it's only my neighbourhood

 Think for a moment about those places you'd most like to see and map a plan for going there. Another state? Another nation? Why live like a hamster in a wheel, running in the same rut every day to the same places at the same times? Take time out! Establish a timetable for embarking on your personal adventure. The truth is, that half the happiness is in the anticipation. So dream big and often!

And in the meantime, take time out to discover the treasures in your won backyard and neighbourhood. There's an amazing world within a few miles waiting to be discovered and enjoyed - happiness is discovering the world around you.

#26 Read or listen to inspiring materials

We all need inspiration - to persevere in the search for excellence, to continue in the good  struggle and to endure through hard times. Perhaps, someone will inspire you today, but if you're wise, you wont leave that to chance. Go out and find one of the numerous inspirational books, tapes, or videotapes available to help you stay the course and fulfill your potential. Such materials can help you get through a hard time or get started again with renewed enthusiasm when you've had a setback.

Everyone needs an emotional boost occasionally, a pick-me-up, a shove in the right direction, or a word of encouragement. There's no fault in losing inspiration-only in allowing it to remain lost - to "inspire" is to put something good into your soul!

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 Got rid most of the stuffs. Rearranged books and notes. Fan looked extremely new. Washed jeans. After the cleaning for today, Im down with flu because alergic to dust, feel a bit sick too, aches on my joints and I have a sexy voice…haha.

#23 Break into song

Deep at the core of every human being, God has placed the joy of song. This seems to be intended to counterbalance the more routine and troublesome aspects of life. Even if you cant carry a tune in a bucket as they say, releasing that urge to burst forth in song can leave you feeling renewed and invigorated.

In fact, singing has been known to be so energizing that individuals sometimes have trouble keeping their feet from tapping and their legs from springing forth in dance. Don’t wait, sing for the joy of it, just because you can. - Happiness is but a few notes away.

#24 Choose a career based on personal satisfaction rather than earning potential

The ingredients necessary to produce genuine happiness vary from person to person but one thing is true for all-material wealth or possessions never fully satisfy the inner longings of the human heart. Neither do they establish self-worth and fulfill our inner need for love.

Each person is a wonderful combination of distinct talents and passions. Take time to search out your own special giftedness and use it. When you do, happiness is sure to follow - you must learn who you are before you can learn what makes you happy.

6 June 2006

5 June 2006

I felt as if I have been pressured too much or I pressure myself. How can you know what am I doing here?  How can see my struggling and trying to be more improved? Or How do I look when I start to type? As I was trying each and every minute. I don’t accuse you for being blind. Wouldn’t you like it if I would leave you? I bet you do. This is my view, my everlasting non-stop ramblings mind. Shut your pipehole! Im writing here using some intolerant english language. Oh yea, you critic me too much until I couldn’t take it. Hello, there are some limits. Or maybe Im just too introvert to accept all those. You called yourself as "Teacher" and you behave like a total one. I don’t know if you still have the impatient thingy. And you think it is good to be 'cruel' or 'cold' to me as it would do good for me. Where is the love? You taught me to solve things with love, to help people with love and violent is not the key. Cruel? Does It have some love inside or just plainly cruel?

Ok I'll leave you in peace. As I think you didn’t really tell me about your views in detail. I think I have not talk about the word issue for some time already. Sorry, I ran out for a bit!

5 june 2006

I wonder if I want to write anymore. I wonder if my english teacher had lied to me. I wonder why is it always pull me down because of this. Should I have realized earlier that Im a dumbo? Why dont I feel good now? I dont feel super duper good. I have a steady mode since the day the "glasses" went broken. They are halfway being glued I guess. I still could see some crack. Maybe I shouldnt try to glue them back. I dont see any point in that. Maybe I should just let it go because It makes me to see more point and I did.

#21 Avoid gossip

Good news travels fast and bad news travels faster. For some reason, people are more willing to pass along the negative things they hear than the positive. In so doing, they lose out on the positive return, for everything wwe say comes back to us eventually. The road to true happiness is paved with compliments and praise. Such words bring a smile to both the speaker and the hearer and encourage the hearts of both. The positive things you say can also establish your reputation as a person of integrity, winning you the trust, admiration and respect to others - positive words create happiness around you.

#22 Reinforce my good habits and dump my bad habits

Good health, good relationships-the good life, in general, is never an accident. It is the clear and simple result of good living. When we establish habits that keep our lives on the right track, we can expect happiness to be a by product. Of course, it isnt possible to control every aspect of our lives. There will be times of sorrow and pain, even calamity, that will come to us simply because we live in an imperfect world. Nonetheless, if you establish good habits, you will be able to maximize and protect what has given you. And remember, it only takes 21 days to establish a good habit - in building good habits, one builds a good life

1 June 2006

I went for swimming in the evening. Today, there was some slight improvement. I guess I have weak hands. I got tired from bringing myself up to the surface with the push of my hands or maybe my technique was wrong. But what I know is that my ass and head will help me to float if I would drown....haha.

I guess, it takes a year to boil a glass of water if the glass would put it in my room. Just kidding or maybe it might be true. Whatever is it. I notice that my room temp is a bit warmer. I think no one even could stand it  or no one could even live for a day in there but somehow I could live in there for days, months and years. It doesnt bother me. I wonder why...haha. I know that I like the warm feeling and I have warm up my room to feel cosy. The Truth: 1 table fan. When it comes to ceiling fan with the speed of either 1 or 2 or 3, somehow I couldnt stand much later on. I started to feel a bit cold. Or maybe I feel cold most of the time.

#19 Make the call that I have been putting off

There is no time like now for doing the thing you know is necessary but I have been putting off. Procastination undermines happiness, but being proactive can wash away frustration, anxiety and uncertainty. Imagine how nice it will feel to have an unpleasant situation resolved or a damaged relationship on the road to healing. If you're concerned about what another person may say in response to your apology, admission or statement of truth, dont be. Regardless of the response, you will feel a powerful surge of happiness and relief because you have had the courage to do the right thing. Remember to speak with kindness.

#20 Take time to think through important decisions

We are wise to recognize that it takes only a few moments to weigh the potential consequences of a decision or to map out a plan that will bring increased effectiveness, efficiency or quality. A pause to think can lead to a conclusion, "this is bad" or "this is better". Both conclusions, either to avoid a negative path or to follow a more positive one, create the potential for greater success and less future suffering. Dont let anyone place your happiness in jeopardy by rushing you to a decision before you're ready. Take your time and trust your instincts. You will have the asnwer precisely when you need it! - Pause for happiness's sake.