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The end of July
08.01.06 (12:08 am)   [edit]
 

31 July 2006

Sunday of shocking news for everyone. And today it had became a hot topic among the students. Everyone was talking about it and looking at the apartment which was clearly visible from the foodcourt.

I had my very first midterm test today. There were 7 chapters to study, spent 2/3days for study that, some maybe day and night. 18 multiple choice questions. 40 minutes to answer. 1 big exam hall, 300++ students. In 10 minutes time, everyone had finished answering that paper :D.

I think I liked the way how my friend study because it benefits me as well. Since she likes to narrate everything out or to someone, I eventually got to know the facts from A - Z from that. All I need to do is just listen. It helps my listening skill indirectly. But one thing I didn’t is that, she makes herself tense, sounds tense and people tense as well. Overall, the paper was not that bad.

There is something which I need to look further. My remembering skills or understanding might have improved at some point. I was surprised myself that when my friend asked something, I can confidently tell her something which I know is right. But if I don’t know, I don’t know then.

#41 Trust in the goodness of Others

The owners of a Florida restaurant instituted a "no bill" policy. At the end of the meal, diners were given "offering" envelopes. Over time, the owners discovered that some enclosed the true value of the meal, some left nothing or less than the meal's value, and some gave more than their meal cost to prepare and serve.

This might seem naïve and of course, there were customers who took advantage of the opportunity to skip out and pay nothing. But overall, the trust the owners placed in their customers has been rewarded. And everyone feels good about it. There is a special joy in trusting people to do the right thing - we all benefit when others are given the benefit of the doubt

#42 Say "I Love You"

The paper was poorly folded. The writing was smudged and crooked. The verse didn’t rhyme and the cutout of a heart made less than a perfect Valentine. But the message from the young girl to her mother was clear: "I love You".

Don’t wait to express your love for others. No matter how you package it, this gift is certain to bring happiness to your life and the lives of others. And failing to do so, can bring you a heart full of regret when the opportunity is lost. It takes so little in the way of time, energy and resources. Do it for yourself and someone you love today - the most important words in the English language are "I love you"

*extracted from "If I really wanted to be happy, I would…." by Honor Books

 
It's July - 18
07.30.06 (4:33 am)   [edit]

30 July 2006

Happy Birthday, mum! :) My feet still swollen, no more reddish but some dark spot is developing, must be some toxinication spots. Now, Im hook looking at some food blogs that I accidentally found when googgling for satay pic. Thanks to raz, he wants food thru internet protocol and I found some interesting stuffs.

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It's July - 17
07.28.06 (5:18 pm)   [edit]
 

29 July 2006

I was in 7-11 at the cashier and felt something poking me on my feet. I raised my pants and saw an insect was stuck at the bottom inner of my pants. I was struggling to get it out but it was too late, the insect had poked me and quickly again, snapped it away. But that time, It was already painful and more painful and the burning spread all over my feet. I got to feel the pain each time my feet landed on the ground as I walked. For last 30m before reaching my home, I almost couldn’t stand it. My speed of walking reduced and tried to bear the pain until I reached home safely.

 

I was cooking some noodle soup at the kitchen and the same time I had to entertain my dad's chat about something important and my uncle's. I didn’t forget about my noodle at the kitchen but I had let it boiled too long and guess what from noodle soup it had became dry noodle. Where was the soup? All over the kitchen floor. But still edible :)

I have slept long for napping. I dreamt about something before waking up. I was having lunch with this celebrity, his friends and my friends, 7 of us. We were in a japanese restaurant. I remember there were food :D . Rice with fish and big prawn. And then the celebrity focused his attention on me "Do I know you?". He asked for my name, "sound familiar to me". At then one of his friend suggested that you actually can google her name and there, you can find her profile. He checked my phone and then I got pissed by his statement or something and I left the place.

Now my feet is a bit swollen, redden, itchy and at times painful

 
It's July - 16
07.27.06 (2:41 pm)   [edit]
 

27 July 2006

Aikido class on Sunday :

Second time doing frontroll had more control than the previous training. My head spin a bit after rolling. We did the backroll for the first time. I braced myself for that, pushed a bit and rolled. I had no idea if I could roll back or not. But I did and I actually like doing back roll…haha. Right side is my default side so, my right side is always better than left side. Each time I did much of backfall and roll…I would get muscle aches the next day. My neck, right shoulder, back waist, hip line and left ass in pain the next day…haha

Yesterday's class :

I felt a bit sickly before Aikido. This time I got few bruises on my both wrist, bruise on my right front foot and right ass in pain…haha. Those bruises looked ugly on my hands :P that I have to cover with long sleeves. Someone might mistaken me for being abused by someone…haha. I know I have thin and small hands like a year 1 pupil :P. it doesn’t mean that I have limitation because of that. Yes, my hands are small and I get bruises mark easily but joining martial arts, I think it can make me more stronger. I was in so much of pain until my hands were numb and having difficulties to write.

After Aikido, this few hmm…juniors, freshies joined me for dinner. When I heard how they were talking about study pressure, things to do, early sleep and etc…that reminds me of my very first timer being in this school and living in Melaka. That only freshie boy who was at the dinner kept calling me "Senior! Senior!" and I found out that he is another pure 'banana'. He speaks malay weirdly with some accent that’s why even the whole restaurant waiters came and served him, they still cant get what he wanted to order. They were pretty same age like my brother.

I don’t know if this has to do with the culture differences or people talks. How they give some hope, some word of encouragement to their friends. Maybe I have seen a few scenarios that I can say that there is a type where tend to be competitive, jealousy, selfish, afraid that other people might be more better than them if they help or encourage them too much. For example: in any difficult or tense situation, they don’t advise you to relax and just try, nothing wrong to try. As they wont laugh at you if you perform badly. When they hear that you don’t know something, that’s better and when you are far more ahead, they become competitive and they don’t even bother to say something like…"you have the talent!" or "Just try, you can do it!".

 

Another type, they eventually want you to try at least a little, that’s already fine. They make you believe that you actually can do anything. And if you are good, they praise you…and if you are struggling, they encourage…and if you fall, they advise you.

 

To try, is not forcing. It is trying to get rid your fear by doing it. For example in Aikido class, when the instructor said…"ok, try! Just try!" so, we roll and fall and whatever. When he included some lines, "Just try! If you can do, it is ok…and if you feel not comfortable, you can stand aside and watch". When he added another option in his line, to indicate that the opposite of trying…of course, everyone would choose the second option because he has given choices and you can choose it. If he doesn’t say the second option, everyone would assume that there is no exception here, everyone must try the technique no matter how.

 
it's July - 15
07.26.06 (10:23 am)   [edit]

i couldnt fall asleep properly. my head was spinning when I rest it on the pillow. i thought i probably would have problem in sleeping for the night. for real, i didnt have any worries or feeling anxious.i was more energized towards late a t night. if i didnt stop playing the piano at 1.30am, i probably could continue for some time but I had to stop and get some rest.

Tossing in the bed for some time before I slept off, i think and started to dream. it was weird, definitely weird. it was a bit blur but i felt as if I was communicating with people thru dreaming, no verbally but with 'sending and receiving thru the mind'. i could see the texts forming in my mind. when i sensed it that it was weird, i felt as if I didnt sleep at all actually. Dreaming brought me to another place, making me to think that I was actually sleeping. well, it was a bit nightmarish but not totally and i dreamt that i was dancing with an unknown guy and maybe it wasnt me at all. I also feel as if i was communicating with iga too. when i woke up in the morning, oh, i felt restless and weird. i didnt seem to be in here.

*network broken again...i sit at the corner everyday, monitor the dsl light...wahahah. And oh damn, they didnt update the information as soon as possible and they didnt actually deal with the previous problem that I had made a report earlier. the line suddenly got stabile was just lucky.

 
Its July - the weekend
07.23.06 (11:47 am)   [edit]
 

23 July 2006

I got a dream, I went to visit this man's house while on vacation? It was nice and spacious house. I remembered I was strolling along the shoreline. The sea water sparkling clear blue and the wave touched my legs. Dream changed but still the same place. The man had left and his house was left empty with some left-over furniture and my dad bought that house. The house looked broken but they were 2 pianos in there. I was going to play my piece and then I had a visitor, my very long lost piano teacher. She insisted so much that she wanted to teach me again. My dad was just beside me. Both of my parents didn’t like the idea. But I really wanted it and I told her and in front of everyone…"tha t I would really like to continue to learn because I want to go further with it but because of financial constraint, my parents cant afford to pay so much monthly." My dad was delighted when he heard I said that because he thought that I was going to reject the opportunity. Upon hearing that, my piano teacher felt sad and offered me a suggestion that she was not going to charge any fees instead I could use tokens. I was glad that someone had the impression that I would be great. 'Are you sure?' I asked her. And she asked me back the same thing :D. Yes I was sure and eventually wanted to start lesson right away. My dad started to oppose…cant remember much this part. Maybe he chased her out.

 

Have a nice weekend!

 
It's July - 14
07.22.06 (3:16 pm)   [edit]
 

20 July 2006

I have been fooled by the weather. I didn’t know that they were doing Cloud-seeding to ease the haze. The thunders, darkness made me think that there was going to have a huge storm and thus I skipped my morning class. Today, I have make sure that I was not going to be fooled again as it was cloudy, thunders like yesterday.

I always a feel bit sad after some test or exam.

A> never sure if I did it correctly. Even if I did it correctly, I still doubt it…haha.

B> thinking that im going to eat zero.

C> I have done whatever I can.

I had trouble setting the path at the environment variables. I forgot how to set it but lucky enough I know how to run and compile from other source…in the bin folder for instead.

I joined my friend's java lab session last Thursday because My tutor went for Cisco Workshop. This, another friend of mine, he was surprised to see me in the lab and asked me later, How did I find his lab session and his tutor? His tutor is nice, friendly and more flexible. The way of conducting the class is different. For example: my tutor is trying to train us to be a real programmer where he would give us the solution each time class starts and call us to type, type, type and run. Yea, train us to type fast as well. Most of the time, I didn’t get the vibe, the challenge of coding because everything is provided. I didn’t use the brain much to think, only did some capturing process and understanding.

My friend's class, the tutor followed the scope of teaching, explained the activities for the lab and got some challenge to code at least one simple line. In summary, I would prefer my friend's class although very studious oriented but there is some challenge.

 

We have been fooled again? Tutor said questions going to be like correcting the errors, continue the program and so on. Never trust them, trust your own instincts.

 
Personality Test :D
07.20.06 (3:29 pm)   [edit]
 

Life as an INFP    & nbsp;   

(Introvert, Intuitive, Feeler, Perceiver)     & nbsp;   

People of this type tend to be: quiet, reserved, and kind; deeply passionate, sensitive, and easily hurt; loving and dedicated to those close to them; creative, original, and imaginative; curious and flexible in small matters; nonconforming.

Great careers for INFPs     & nbsp;  

Here are just a few popular and often satisfying careers for people whose Personality Type is INFP.

  • Psychologist
  • Human resources professional
  • Physical therapist
  • Researcher
  • Translator/interpreter
  • Legal mediator
  • Employee development specialist
  • Religious worker
  • College professor: humanities
  • Massage therapist
  • Social worker
  • Librarian
  • Fashion designer
  • Holistic health practitioner
  • Editor/art director (web site)

 

How to Love an INFP     & nbsp;   &n bsp;

  • Appreciate my uniqueness and sensitivity.
  • Be a patient and supportive listener.
  • Respect my privacy and my need for emotional intimacy.
  • Be reassuring and gentle in your words and actions.
  • Try not to force decisions too quickly, or bug me about being messy.
  • Above all - respect my feelings and never demand that I compromise my values.

Parenting INFPs     & nbsp;   &n bsp;

The Joys and Challenges of Raising INFPs:

They are idealistic, committed, and deeply passionate, but tend to idealize relationships, and are easily hurt and tend to hold grudges. Spontaneous and highly original, they also tend to be quite disorganized and become overwhelmed by details.

What works with INFPs:

  • encourage them to talk about their ideas; listen quietly and give them your undivided attention
  • allow them to watch from the sidelines: give them plenty of time to play alone or day dream
  • respect the intensity of their feelings; appeal to their desire for harmony in times of conflict

Parents of INFPs: they'll know you really love them when you...

go on a date and listen privately to their feelings and reactions

 

SpeedReading INFPs     & nbsp;   &n bsp;

The key to success lies in your ability to quickly size others up, and speak their language. Here are just a few clues for SpeedReading (understanding) and SpeedReaching (communicating with) INFPs.

How to Spot INFPs:

  • idealistic with deep yet private passions
  • creative and imaginative
  • initially hesitant and cautious
  • original, even funky dressers

Tips for Communicating with INFPs:

  • Share genuine beliefs and values to establish rapport
  • Respect their slower warm time and need for privacy
  • Emphasize the ways ideas will benefit others
 
It's July - 13
07.20.06 (3:02 pm)   [edit]

19 July 2006 With only 2.0 hours sleep, I had survived the long day with no proper food. It started at 8am and I went back home for the 2 hours break to catch another 1.5 hours sleep. Luckily german class finished 30 minutes early so that I had time to buy some food and went back to change my attire.

I was already quite tired that time and even thinking to ditch aikido training but then I happened to bounce with the club president at pasar malam…haha. It wasn’t because of him that I had to go, I wanted to go from the bottom of my heart. Well, I enjoyed the training and guess what I have slight soreness on my inner thighs and ass, that’s because we practice the backfall and a sore back shoulder because of rolling. What I like is that, I like to see the passion and spirit they have for aikido. I can see in most upper level trainers. And another thing that I like is, the tiredness or terrible feeling I have gone once I enter the dojo and focus on the training. It's easy to just drop the focus and start to think about food or any matters. But I have been there for 3 times and I could say that I have good focus.

Although he has some general ideas or behave like any other man but there is something which is special. I came to think that how males and females are created. Females, they are given some special stuffs, pregnancy, breasts, and periods. Males, they don’t have much think other than their tools. I think thats because men are made to be as a strong creature, so they don’t have many specialties to worry. So, that’s why they are in-controlled with their emotions to portrait strong. Where as for females, they have many things to worry and they are given the specialties which causes them to have mood swings and being emotional. Isnt it? Hehe.

  • nilij website has renewed
 
It's July - 12
07.18.06 (10:12 pm)   [edit]

16 July 2006 This was my first time to reverse the process of taking train from klang - KL and take bus from Pudu - Melaka. My dad shared his old timer story where he was working in KL during his 20's and going back to mlk on weekend. He had to take several buses to reach his destination and there wasn’t any highways. Imagine! That he had to take 3/4 different buses and he had to stand all the way and needed 6 hours for his journey.

After hearing his story, transportation in our country has improved a lot. The thing is that people don’t see it. If you are not born in the 60's or 70's, you don’t know much about it. What you can see, it's the present of the day. Look around! Not many local people is using local public transports and you still can complaint about it. And when you got to use it, you still complaint about it. If you want to have perfect transportation system, why don’t you try to be the ministry of transport Or start to write official letter of suggestion to the right party. Even if our country would have better and perfect transportation system in the future, would you use it? Since you don’t use it, that’s why there are a lot of foreign workers, Indonesians and etc are using it and you make a statement that public transport only for those people. The thing is you don’t use it when the country has provide them for you. You have to be the user in order to make the changes and improvement.

Pudu bus station is old, cramp and hot. To think of modifying it or refurnish is even harder. It has been there for years. A strategic place and everyone is used to it. If the main terminal has to move or close for renovation, it effects everyone. Yea, I think a lot of malaysians are a bit ashamed when talk about Pudu area. But what can I say, somehow tourists have to step on Pudu area even though how bad it looks. You have to see it to believe it. I was sitting inside Starbucks for 1.5 years waiting for my departure time, looking out from the glass window, what I saw was what was going on at the moment.

 
It's July - 11
07.17.06 (3:47 pm)   [edit]
 

14 July 2006

Since the semester started, I got the chance to interact with new people and I enjoyed it. I like to see how much I have improved in that area. What I got the most comment was that they were surprised that I look young. Yes, I do and it's not a big problem. You just have to feel proud of it. Age doesn’t matter. I was stopped by this salesgirl the other day at KLCC, regarding about some beauty skin promotion. And she asked for my age. I told her that Im 23 and she was like omg! Jaw dropped wide and commented that maybe Im still studying so I still look young and she is working, so she looks old. But I would say it must be about stress…haha. And so, people didn’t like to stop for 5 minutes to hear some promotional talk. They would ask you if you are free now and maybe you can join us for free scanning and whatsoever. I replied to her directly 'NO' instead of like some other people, they would give a lot of reasons and excuses. I even suggested to her that maybe her company can set up some booth in melaka shopping mall to promote their business…oops :D!

15 July 2006

We planned to go swimming together and when I woke up, he had left for jogging instead. Later I got an invitation from my old school friend thru msn. I was almost declined the invitation when I started to ask a lot of details. I accepted her invitation an hour before the meeting. Yes, never happen in my life. Because you need to make an appointment with me 2 days earlier or so…haha. Maybe I went there for the food…haha, Secret Recipe, who doesn’t like it? But well, nice to see them after ages. And it wasn’t easy to catch me back in town. 2 of the girls who I had not seen for 5/6 years, maybe one the girl was even longer, 10 years maybe. Another girl named Julie, she was my…hmm…the connection was a bit complicated because our schools were neighbour. And if she knows, then she will know her as well and so on. Well, I got to know Julie 2 years ago in my friend's house for deepavali and another girl named Aileen, never seen her before but chatted a few times with her thru msn. So, we were much click together.

I got a lot of comment that I study way too long and they were wondering what have I been doing. Master degree? Double degree? No people, Im doing a single degree. No hurry to finish and I didn’t waste any time for taking diploma or whatsoever. Why would people think that I have wasted a year in college and 2 years diploma? They werent wasting of time, I had the knowledge. If I would financially secure, I would just enrolled myself in any private college back then and I would be done in 3 years time. It depends on what an individual is looking for.

We tend to forget our age as we move in to the 20's even our parents. My dad always mistake for our age but he can buy birthday cake with the correct candles…haha. He thought Im 20 or 21. Oh dad, Im 23 this year and then he started to rethink. I think the problem that parents tend to forget our age might cause them to think that we are still young. But they do realize their age is catching up and he knows that he is going to be 60 next year.

 
It's July - 10
07.13.06 (3:40 pm)   [edit]
 

13 June 2006

The moon was fantastic yesterday. The skies look great absolutely amazing, bright, sunny, windy, simply marvelous weather. 1am weather would be thunder and heavy rain…hahaha. I really like the day so far. I had a group discussion on java. Hell yeah, 1 person was thinking in UML form while me and another guy were thinking in database form. I just realised that the project title is boring. I did hotel reservation for last semester using ASP and this time hotel reservation again in java. But well, I still don’t know about UML and this is the time. It's moving fast. All the tests and whatsoever is starting next week.

Mango lost from the tree. Nooo….how can it be? It's way up high there.

Making an effort to improve your life. Don’t know where to start? Start right where you are right now, no matter where you are or how much you hate where you are standing right now. The starting point is to delete the idea of hating or dislike of what you are doing, your place and yourself. When you feel more happy, you'll receive more energy and be positive!

 

 
It's July - 9
07.13.06 (12:14 am)   [edit]
 

12 June 2006

I must say that I like the day towards the end. It was a sunny day. The sky looked good. It rained at midnight yesterday. There was an old chinese drunk man today my god! At the shortcut path. I was back from school around 6.15pm and I saw an old man sitting under the tree, reading newspaper. He has a bicycle. Ok, looked no harm. I was out to school again at 7.30pm, walking halfway at the shortcut and I saw the old had alighted from his previous position and simply shouted at a cyclist up the roadside. Since he started to have some action on the cyclist where the cyclist didn’t seem to even disturb him at the first place, Ok, I turned back and used the other route. After crossed to the opposite of the building, I stood there and watched. Clearly, he was drunk. He was holding a bottle of liquor and walked up the roadside, shouting at whoever passed by.

I didn’t know how he dismissed himself from there as I continued walking to school. It was Aikido night…yippiiee. I was still wondering about whose armpit smell and figured out that it might be from one of the senior and I was thrown many times from him, imaging he has his arm curves up my chin, I might fall instantly before he finishes the action…wahaha. I was paired up with this new asthmatic patient girl. She was so worried if she would hurt my hands when twist them. She even looked so scare by just looking at my hand twisted by the senior. I don’t know, my hands seemed not to be hurry in pain when overloaded twisted.

German teacher, Herr Pierre, I don’t think he is so good after all in teaching. He always not sure about the spellings and showed some exhaustion in teaching.

Ginger chicken guy asked.."want to add egg or add vege or add RICE?" haha.

 
It's July - 8
07.11.06 (9:40 pm)   [edit]
 

11 June 2006

Did I regretted it? I had an explosion this morning and now my lower abdomen is in pain, pulling to the max. It caused a bit sleepless because It didn’t feel comfortable. And if I always look green in my face because of this, I need more iron…haha.

Pain is like a friend or lover, just have to embrace them. It stays in your body for few days, and if you accept it well, it soon will gone easily. You don’t have to whine. If someone insults you and you take it personally thus making you feel angry. Don’t reply anything to the person until 24 hours :D because after 24 hours, your anger will gone and have nothing to comment.

Time flies quickly or earth moves faster? I don’t know but I just sat here for a while and it was already 9pm.

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It's July - 5
07.10.06 (1:36 am)   [edit]
 

9 June 2006

First time in my few history of my weekend life that I woke up before 12 noon and in good shape. It was raining in the morning…Heavy then slow then heavy and slow and heavy and slow and at last it stopped. I joined my friends for a movie, Take the Lead starring Antonio Banderas. I have always want to learn Tango or even tap dancing…hahaha! Dancing is a form of language, interaction and for self-expression. There are many types of Tango and in a few countries, they have their own Tango. Why Tango? Because it is sensual, smooth, passion and strong. Like I took French because it is a beautiful language and it sounds sensual to me. And now German, Why? Because I have thrown away my thinking about german language is hard to learn or pronoun just because it sounds rough. So, I want to give it a try and it might be useful for me in the future. There are 3 famous languages for musical terms - French, Italian and German. Usually the french and italian terms are easy to pronoun than the German. My music teacher would just point to me the german term…"This, must remember, I don’t know how to pronoun it". Haha, the thing was I had to remember the spelling and the meaning, that’s all. Back to the dancing…oh yea, and I like swing as well. 3/4 years back I started to listen to some Ratpack music because I enjoyed watching some old films that time by Jack Lemmon, Jackie Stewart and Fred Astaire

After movie, helped my friend to choose some shoes. There were mirrors underneath the racks and all I could see was legs…yea, LEGS! I was thrilled.

It was gloomy the whole day, nice weather though. It has been hot for days and tonight I bet it is nice to sleep as it is a bit chilling. I was back to my place at 7pm, just in time to pack and change for my first Aikido class. I was hungry. Well, I know I need to eat something before but I didn’t because Im having some bloatedness, first day of period, cant feel when my stomach is hungry. I was tired and arrived at the training place. There were few girls standing outside the hall and I went to ask them if they were coming for aikido as well. And yes. Intro a bit and one girl thought that I was a senior in Aikido *doink! No, Im new. Damn, it smelt so bad when I entered the hall, armpit smell damnit! Somehow I think, it must be from one of the girls. I had smelt it even when I was standing at the hallway. I think that I started yoga earlier was good for me as the warm-up was quite similar to yoga's warm-up. But the movements were fast..left, right, left, right, up, down, up, down. I saw one of my friend there, we were classmate in diploma years.

Sensei arrived here around 8.45pm from KL. He's the instructor but he can only be here for alternate weeks. He talked something about what is Aikido and pointed at me, saying that "..like this small girl over here, he can throw this big guy here after some months of training". Everyone giggled. At some point, I can see how it works. There was another senior guy who also asked if I have learnt before. We were practising some…grabbing. And the guy that I talked to at the booth, he is the president of the club.

At the end, I was sad, bit more like happy and glad. I found something, that is focus. I didnt mind how bad can I look when I roll or fall. I didn’t get distracted by someone that I knew. I talked to my dad via messenger after that and I enjoyed chatting with him for the first time. I felt as if I could tell him everything and some connection of father-daughter when we talked about swimming. I told him that Im learning Aikido as well. He thinks that it would do good for me. At some point, I started to think that after telling him all this or just chatted for  few minutes. He might be a proud father and he could see more of me, the perception is changing.

I happened to cry at somewhere I was typing this. Does it has anything to do with my PMS? Or Im happy for myself?

 
It's July - 4
07.09.06 (12:57 am)   [edit]
 

7 June 2006

LOL, I was typing my java solutions and I got the 'public' as 'pubic'.

I knocked my knee at the road sidebar when I wanted to cross the road. There was some vibration thoughout the whole leg for few seconds. And now I have this dark bruise dog paws look alikey.

This was the first time I saw the forum owner pic. And then I had a nap and eventually dreamt of meeting her in Finland. We were eating in a chinese restaurant. After that, she brought me to some place and there…all my family including my godparents threw a surprise party to me for welcoming me to Finland.

#39 Treat myself to a "cultural" experience

A woman once took her young son to an art exhibit, unsure of exactly how he might respond to the imposing gallery, the crowd of adults, the silence of the great halls and the pieces on display that defied comprehension. As they stood facing a modern painting, which may have been hung upside down for all the mother could tell, her son spoke up "I like this one. It's how I feel sometimes."

Art, music and dramatic performance speak to each of us-sometimes in unexpected ways but always in deep and wonderful ways. The artistic expressions of our culture send a message that we are not alone in our feelings or isolated in our experiences - part of feeling happy is feeling connected.

#40 Be careful not to bite off more than I can chew

There is a point of diminishing return for all endeavors, where quantity conflicts with quality and pressure to perform conflicts with morale and good relationships. Over-commitment is a fast path to burnout. And no person can be truly happy if he or she is stressed to the max.

Most people feel that "no" is an unhappy word. But learning to say "no" can provide balance to your life and allow you the time you need to stop and smell the roses. It will also free up your schedule so that you can say "yes" to those things you really want and need to be involved in. DO what you can for yourself and others - candles arent meant to be burned at both ends.

*extracted from "If I really wanted to be happy, I would…." by Honor Books

 
It's July - 3
07.06.06 (1:05 pm)   [edit]

5 June 2006

5.30am in the morning, I heard my neighbour was shouting. From there, I knew that they were playing extra time. Soon, I had to get up for 8am class. I was tired but could manage it. I was having fear of using that road. Twice, I spotted someone was hiding in the bushes and whistled at me to get my attention. But I didn’t turn and just walked straight. I intended to report to the police soon enough when got my phone reloaded.

Oh, I had some mucles ache at my rear thighs again. That was because I straightened my legs in 90 degrees and bent my body into arch. Some motorcyclist almost broke his neck when he looked at me when I happened to pass in front of him. Look, where you are going, dude! I was drowsy in afternoon class, statistics in theory, uhhh! Met up with hasnie for a drink with mr Kumar. I havent seen hasnie for a month or so and today we eventually got to sit and chatted a bit. I might even start to wonder if Kumar did tell anything about pots to them. Since, that time where me and Iga were stranded in Bkt Beruang at 11pm with no taxi could be found to transport us back to town and so I got help from Kumar and when the school reopened, I heard the news about 'us stranded in bkt beruang' from them without me telling them anything…haha. Well, it doesn’t matter. I just start to find it funny if they would start to check on me some time if I have the look of someone who has just got some pots and if he would tell them something….haha.

Don’t feel guilty or anything Kumar, if you are reading this. I just have become more open to the world and beyond :D

Back to my story, for all sudden, I felt a bit hard following the german class. Every language is unique, there must be something about it that is unique. The verb, noun, masculine, gender and etc same like in french, spanish and other languages. Need to memorize and understand how it is use if for first, second and third person comes in.

Since, I have the cam in my hand. Im enjoying having it. I was exhausted after the end of the last class for the day. Got myself to the lab but it was useless. 7pm? Wrong timing. No one is at home at that hour. So, I left the place after sitting there for 10 minutes or less. I walked myself to night market. Exhausted but at the end, I started to enjoy it, the walk, the people. For sudden, I felt relaxed and as well as wanted to jump in the pool. I happened to meet my neighbour at the night market. Ok, I started to think that he talks too much, sometimes. Well, I like to talk to people who is more elder than me about one or 2 decades. Yea, he is working as a salesperson that’s why he talks a lot….haha. He did mentioned about being alone that’s where the best time to learn to be independent and have some time for yourself.

I found myself enjoying and relaxing typing all this. But it might be boring for some people…haha. Because I had a long day. Just type whatever it is coming out from me. Whatever it is…boring or not. Who cares? Haha. Ya, this clubs and societies are opening their booths to recruit new member. So, I went to greet the Aikido booth. This guy entertained me. I had not even ask much, he was already kept mentioning that his assumption was right…"you look like you have learnt it before" I was like…no. But he was still…"someho w I think you really look like you have learnt it before"….bla bla bla "that’s good, at least you are interest". Hey, I havent use the 'bla bla bla' for a long time already. Maybe, I have tried to improve something in that area as well. If you wanna speak, complete it. Don’t let it hanging there.

This doctor of mine reminds me of that Christ Church priest's wife. I havent visit her for a long time. Well, we were bad actually, we visited her for the second time at her house just because we wanted to get a free ride back home but no luck. That was because she might had sense our cruel intention that brought us to her house…haha.

Oh I need to visit big bookstore in KL. I need to find some language books. Maybe could even visit Goethe Institute some day. Might help. Oh, and I really love showering. Watertherapy/hydrotherapy ….yea.

That’s crazy! I made a report about streamyx on Sunday and I got a called from them on Monday, alighted me much and thought it was going to be alright by Monday but damn, they got the wrong address. They went to my landlady's house instead of my house and damn, I had to make another report again on the same day itself. It eventually need a week to look into the matter. Damn, my work stranded.

Ma kaipaan sua…..sinua, sinua, sinua

 
It's July - 2
07.04.06 (9:56 pm)   [edit]
4 July 2006 Nowadays, works, transactions and etc are done online. One of the reason for that is to create a paperless-society in schools. Paperless, does it mean that no more using papers anymore? But what is the reason behind it? So that work can be done easily. Everyone is connected these days and if you want to get any info, just click and download from the Internet. Does this paperless thingy has any factor on saving the environment? No more cutting trees? But if it would be some part of saving the environment, I don’t think it helps much. Even though we download our notes online but we have to print out the notes by ourselves which means print them out on papers and bring the printed notes to the class. So, papers are still involve. Let's say if the teacher would print the notes for all her/his students, it would still the same. The usage of the paper is still there. If they want to do it totally paperless, I think they need to provide the students some sort of e-writing pad or e-notes or e-papers to keep all our notes after download them and then we can even write something on it. So, there would be no paper involve :P that’s why they have this e-book but they arent so popular. E-book, the one with screen and stuff not that e-book in pdf file. Always dreamt something at night. At least a few dreams. If I like the dream, I would end up smiling at the end. Well, I cant remember them clearly. The first one was about my old friends and took some group pictures. Then I dreamt about my landlady who came to visit my house. There was a kid with me. Not sure if the kid was my little cousin. The house exterior had a look of my house. However, the interior had a look of my grandma's place. For some reason I happened to wake up after one of the dream and still hold the image in my mind. The background music which was playing on my pc might have directed me back to the dream. The last dream, everyone was present at my grandma's place. Those to people were talking nicely to each other again. We were going to visit my grandma's grave or something. But the weird was my grandma had cooked some food for us at home and she said that everyone must be back to eat. Today : Germany VS Italy @ 3.00am Live on Astro and RTM 1
 
It's July
07.03.06 (8:19 pm)   [edit]

1 July 2006

My parents were here. It was nice in the sense that I was out from the usual routine for weekend. My 2 little cousins were here for one night as well. What else can I say about them? The big brother is always the sensible one, the one who knows how to look after his little brother. He knows how to stop playing computer/mobile phone games after some time. As for his little brother, he is a destroyer…haha. He likes to disturb his big brother, he still does the thing that elder people warn him not to do that, he is artistic, never give your mobilephone number to him…he calls you every after 30 minutes.

The funny part was when the big brother was chatting with my brother from SG, the little said he wanted to type too and ok, the big brother gave some space for him, just for a while. He took his school book and looked for words.
He typed: Rojak (a name of food). My brother was puzzled and replied .."nasi lemak lah". Then, he typed another one : Ini nenek pokok ( this is grandma tree), everyone laughed. Then, he typed : sejuk rojak( cold rojak) and rojak again. The big brother started to feel a bit irritated because my bro assumed that the big brother always like to talk nonsense suddenly.
In the end, he got back the seat.

2 July 2006

Interesting football matches between England VS Portugal and Brazil VS France. So, Germany, Italy, Portugal and France for semi-finals. Which means Brazil is not going to win the world cup this year.

My sleeping pattern has been weird. When I sleep at night, at least I woke up a few times after a dream and it feels like they weren't proper sleeps. But when I took a nap in the afternoon, I would sleep like hell, pretty deep sleep.

Today's afternoon nap I dreamt of something. It was a bit blur. I didn’t know if I was one of the security in the dream for a concert or an artiste. That artiste named was Sirium. My godparents were in the dream too. I ran up to them before their car left. They were a few black jacket people going to take them home. Then this artiste wanted to meet me privately. She told me about her situation and her mum that she wasn’t happy. Later that night, I got a  chance to rest that was where I went to eat with my honey, bought some snacks for the night, we decided to spend together for the night but first after dinner we hanged around at a computer place for Internet. Then, someone came to me and told me that the artiste wanted to see me at some place. So, I was a bit oh damn, I have to work. I left the computer place and arrived somewhere back lane or some tunnel where the artiste and her brother was there. Her brother was talking to their mum on the public phone. The artiste asked me to help to speak to her mum that she didn’t want to do her mum's way. I felt a bit weird as the situation was a bit tricky. Her brother was silence on the phone. Then, her brother passed me the receiver. The weird thing was that when I hold the receiver, I can hear her mum talked but I just couldn’t reply back. There wasn’t any sound coming out from me when I was trying to speak. I felt more weird as if this whole thing was some sort of complot of the 2 siblings. The artiste kept telling me to speak, speak. But there wasn’t any sound coming out from me. I hunged up the phone. The artiste asked me why didn’t I tell to her mum. I told her the weird situation when I held the receiver. She didn’t believe it. I think her brother must knew it too but he kept quiet as if he didn’t know anything. Then I asked "what is going on? What is happening?" I woke up after that.

3 July 2006

There was a strong wind around 1am. The windows were squeaking and the roofs were lifted up a bit and followed by a heavy downpour. I don’t know if my neighbor(2 houses from mine) is trying to find fault or he has already set his mind of doing so. He was extremely worried about the 3 african guys who just moved in between our houses last week and he had already warned one of the guy to keep their noise low. World cup is going to end soon. Cant he just it let go and see later after the world cup? Everyone is enthusiasts about football. But well, this is the first time that foreign students parked in as one of our neighbour. They should be more observance and they just need to know a little of the country before they would come here.

I dreamt that my family and I went to Penang. I saw a few beautiful landscapes. But those places didn’t seem to be like in Penang except that tall building. Somewhere in the middle of sleeping, I woke up because I was feeling extremely cold. My hands, feets were all cold and the blanket didn’t feel enough for me. It felt as if the cold air was coming in all direction.