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Saturday
03.10.07 (1:13 pm)   [edit]
I am going to close down this blog for a new refresh of my life as I am ready to let go all the entries.
My new blog add : http://nilij-nutter.blogspot....

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Friday
03.09.07 (11:48 pm)   [edit]
I dont know what is it yet. Surely, feels weird. It feels like something is going to come out from me, ripping off my skins. Last night, all those fear,insecurity and the usual that I got were circulating around, thinking either to resurface or not. But I guess it just didnt feel like resurface. It feels like that I would to kill them off.

Reading Merilyn's second book, I fall asleep after few pages. Well I took a nap. Woke up several times between the interval. All those stuffs that I mentioned appeared in my dream, feeling awful right after waking up at least I feel like I was still in dreaming state.

Cycled by myself to jusco today. Nice!

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Thursday
03.09.07 (12:41 am)   [edit]
Feeling anxious, uhhh! happened to pour some hot soup on my lap. happened to feel de-motivated when application to Agilent Technologies got rejected. well, for certain particular position. But yea, at times feeling de-motivated, feeling like it might not work and at times I am confident about it.

What a disaster! I eventually like this house because it is spacious and airy. Other than&nbs p;that no comme nt. Big Kitchen..oh yea! I enjoyed sleeping at the hall and also the 2nd hall. Big empty space to run away. I even skated there and full with memories, hehe! but memories are old.

Today when I came back from school. I was a bit surprised to see the rubber seeds at weird places. That triplet seeds eventually broken into their individual parts. One was on the computer table, another on top of the piano and another one on the chair. The seeds were placed on top of the computer table. Who has moved it? My pet lizard?

Yesterday, I reopend my digital piano. Still sound good,hehe! Orbital&n bsp;is good

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Out and About
03.06.07 (3:14 pm)   [edit]
I was typing long just now and puff! all gone, browser closed by itself.

Sadness sinks whenever be around with family, friends, outdoor and yepping with anyone. But it is a temporal moment when the real thing is that needs to release it. Most likely I think my neck and shoulder is still jam because I havent release the big boom! Gonna talk about it over and over again until I am clear and drop everything. It is time to re-heal, re-juvenate, re-energize and re-cap.

There is one thing I happened to realize on Sunday's Training. Where is my inner strength or power? Guess that I dont use it and havent find it yet. In Training, I was not that good as I thought. If nage did the irimi nage correctly, most likely uke might rollback easily when being thrown. If it is not, you wont roll back.

I am still having difficulty each  ;time when waking up in the morning but today it is better. Just feel like I have lost something. Well, I was awakened because of some nightmarish/ghostly dream. Reality sets in, readapt back to where I was. Togetherness had caused a great and bad times. What can  I do now?  Be strong, go&n bsp;on and cont inue the wisdom  that I go t. 

Thats pretty much your fate, haha! When you are not around then Im going out with my friends. When you are around, we are all so busy. Yesterday night went out with them. Heard quite much of engagement news of our old friends and another one from the forum that eventually I dreamt about it. Not dreaming about myself getting married, ok! hehe.

Ryan Farish  - Everlasting album is good. Thanks for the speakers. It sounds good and I still thought that it comes from my altec lansing speakers...haha.

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Tremors felt in M'sia after quake strikes Sumatra
03.06.07 (2:15 pm)   [edit]

Tuesday March 6, 2007 - From The Star Online

Tremors felt in M'sia after quake strikes Sumatra

KUALA LUMPUR: Tremors were felt in parts of peninsular Malaysia and Singapore after an earthquake struck southern Sumatra at 11.50am. 

There is no threat of a tsunami, the Meteorological Department said. 

The earthquake measured 5.8 on the Richter scale, it said. 

Meanwhile the AP reported from Jakarta:  

A powerful earthquake rattled western Indonesia Tuesday, damaging buildings and sending panicked residents running into the streets on Sumatra island, officials and witnesses said. 

It was felt as far away as Singapore, where some office buildings were evacuated, and in neighboring Malaysia. 

The U.S. Geological Survey said the tremor had a preliminary magnitude of 6.3 and struck 50 kilometers (around 30 miles) from Padang, a city on Sumatra's western coast.  

It had a depth of 33 kilometers (about 20 miles). 

There were no initial reports of injuries, said Sgt. Gunawaman, a police spokesman who like many Indonesians uses one name.  

The shaking shattered glass doors and shop windows, he said. 

"Everything in my house were fell down... a cabinet hit me,'' said Rahma Nurjana, a Padang resident. 

"My neighbor's house collapsed.'' 

The Pacific Tsunami Warning Center in Hawaii said the earthquake occurred on land, meaning no tsunami warnings would be issued. 

The tremor was felt in Singapore, 430 kilometers (265 miles) from the epicenter, forcing the evacuation of several older office buildings, TV station Channel NewsAsia reported. 

Residents in Malaysia's largest city, Kuala Lumpur, also reported tremors. 

Indonesia, the world's largest archipelago, is prone to seismic upheaval due to its location on the so-called Pacific "Ring of Fire,'' an arc of volcanos and fault lines encircling the Pacific Basin. 

In December 2004, a massive earthquake struck off Indonesia's Sumatra island and triggered a tsunami that killed more than 230,000 people, including 131,000 people in Indonesia's Aceh province alone.  

A tsunami off Java island last year killed nearly 5,000. 

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Students at my school evacuated from the buildings because of the tremors. All classes are cancelled

 
The End!
03.02.07 (11:11 am)   [edit]

Thats bad, always feel sad after waking up in the morning and I have to be up 2/3 hours earlier than usual for crying session before going to school and always feel hungry. or maybe thats just some feeling that I have in my stomach. I am quite numb here. Shoulder/neck jam. MInd still blank or maybe crowded which make me cant think of anything. Just feel like nothing to say, no comments but sure I do have. I must have been quite exhausted for the last few days or week. A bit hectic for me since came back from Thailand. And yet I wanted to spend the best time with him. I know that I would want some 'not seeing each other for few days' after the trip but I think it is better not to. Didnt have much time to lose a day and he is broke and I fall asleep in the middle of something although it might be something else that caused it.

2 days before he left, my energy drained, still left some, still could go on. I helped him to pack especially in folding clothes. He is bad in doing that. I should have sleep earlier that day but he had not finished packing until 3 am. And the previous night I slept at 4am and had to wake up at 7am. The following day, he was still packing and finished his last minute work. I waited and waited and we left around sunset. Got tired and I pretty much had nothing to say. I cant talk when tiredness strikes. Or maybe since then, my mind has been blank. I was thinking to talk to him about us, some recap but eventually forgotten. The last night of sleeping, he still managed to say something which I didnt want to hear. Last night? And still complain about me? Dont you have something nice to say? I didnt say much about it because I was already numb and have heard too much of  that. It is all about the same thing. And thats only one problem is that you just cant accept me, who I am and thats it.

The last day, still tired. I felt nothing and didn't feel like talking. A bit tense, perhaps but still quite good. I know he is going home. He was anxious at the airport, a bit hesitating and a bit in hurry. He had a red t-shirt, a blue jeans and short hair, thats what I saw him last for real.

Surely, I do have something to comment or to say but not right now. everything seemed to be unrealistic. Well, he has been good, more better that I could see it and at some point I might fall easily of blaming myself for being shitty at times or most of the times. Thats self pity which I didnt open the door for it until now. It is time to heal again. Thanks for the sms saying that you have arrived there safely :)

The end!

 
A new Day
03.02.07 (12:53 am)   [edit]

A cloudy rainy day, a nice day. I managed to put away his stuffs in a box, ahh makes my room looks more better. I found out that there were more than 10 screws under the bed, had to pick them up one by one. Today, I have friends commented that my hair has grow, more longer than usual and thats what they usually not been seeing it and got comment that I look thin. THIN! sad case. I have been in program to gain weight for 4 weeks and I managed to gain few kilos and still 'thin' or 'very skinny'...waahhh, sad!

Apologize for being inconsistency in my typing or semantics error or confusion. 

Welcome daphne and family back to Malaysia! gonna meet her tomorrow, hopefully tomorrow. I like the idea that I have sent someone back to Finland and receiving another person from Finland.
2 hectic weeks of moving back and forth between mlk and kl. Have a nice weekend! 

 

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